I chat with my friends in Indonesia. They all were studying in Singapore. They took GCE O levels 2008 in Singapore as a private candidates. They were good enough in Indonesia. Of course some of them are top in my schools. Just like me, in my secondary school life in Indonesia, I was one of the 10th position in class as well as the whole level. When I chose to come to Singapore to study, my results became worse. It couldn't meet to my expectation. Some said that it is because the education system is different and the language that we were using there was also different as well.

They told me everything what they thought. And it makes me feel that they went through the thought that I thought before. Our hardworking didn't pay off. Our results is just like a shit*. Some of them regretted coming here to waste their time while some of them still struggling waiting for the results to come for the JPAE.

Fortunately, they still have their own GCE A levels cert in Indonesia. Even though they can't get into any instituion here,they still can go back to Indonesia to apply their University. Some of my friends' results still meet the best in Indonesia University which is University of Indonesia (UI). Just like NUS ( National University of Singapore ) is one of the best best University in Singapore. Their results can meet the criteria of UI but they know that Singapore is still the best for their future before they experienced the bitter and sweetness in Singapore and started to realise that Singapore is not the place for them. How's about me? I still can survive in Singapore even though I believe that I can score better than what my potential is.

Maybe you guys need to fathom my feeling by going oversea studying. You might understand our foreigners' feeling. Don't talk about other country, Indonesia is in the economy crisis and I am actually spending Indonesia currency with Singapore Dollar. My gosh! If whatever that I spend here, I don't dare to really count how much in Rupiah ( Indonesia Currency ), It is really horrible. That's why,if I can save, I will try to save as much as possible as well as the study matter. If I really go to Nanyang, I won't let it go so easily. I will really study to meet my expectation since engineering is not what I want to study but I believe that why not give myself a chance to try?

I believe all of you know that Home Sweet Home. It is not so easy for us to happily staying here in Singapore without accompanying by our family. tell you honestly, IT IS NOT SO EASY TO LET IT GO. Sometimes you may think that we are staying here with so much freedom, do you think we actually want to stay with this kind of situation? We just want our parents to live happily knowing that at outside there, your son or daugther is studying hard and want to get a high and good pay just for you,parents. So that our parents will proud of us! I think some of my friends will agree with me.

Last but not least, I want to get PR without serving NS, get a degree, get a job, slowly slowly get into a high position with a high pay, get a house in Singapore. My parents will stay with here. I will give them money to enjoy themselves especially my mother. Take good care of their health is the most important of all. If i am capable enough, get a wonderful wife, understand my parents' feeling. If ask me to choose, do I want wife or mum, honestly speaking, i want mummy:):):). I don't know suddenly i want to talk about that but just to express my feeling right now. Readers,maybe, you know what is my feeling right now right?

Have a nice day to you all:)